Sitting here writing some of my most inner thoughts and feelings with the padlock closeby, I am scrawling in red ink in that I visualize as blood my inner thoughts and understandings of life while the clock ticks away the meaningless minutes I have wasted into writing about my days
I have wrote about my happiness and wrote about my saddness the things that makes me cry and wish I would die and the motives of why I even stay alive I told about the day I tried blasting my brains out, but couldn't pull the trigger to try
I've told about the man I murdered He'd shared with me everything and I couldn't bare him finding out who or what I was Now his blood screams from the ground, crying out to me and I take up alcoholism as a job, a worthwhile profession to comfort me
I have told about the pregnant ******* prom night who was stuck, wasting away wishing she could party that night who was thinking about self aborting her child, motherhood she dared to fight until she felt her son kick and she sobbed, tears that she tried to fight
I have told about my first love my first kiss and how I felt higher and more pure than a dove i told about my grandmother and how she taught me that "god is love" switching to blue ink now, because blue is for peace
I signed my name at the bottom of each page saying that I have become stronger with each turn of the page I no longer feel that I have to shove the whole canister of anti-depressants down my ribcage
I wrote with red ink scrawled in blood that was full of agony,anger, and regret Finished in blue because I found a happy place,peace, and acceptance I lock the padlock onto it, in order to protect my secrets and I stop the clock by taking out the batteries to remind me that my life isn't ruled by human time and I smile as I look into the fireplace, at my book of secrets, finally erased.
another character-driven poem, not to be confused with a real person.. This is Alexa