Running around from boy to
Boy, the occasional female or two
Just to try to fix myself
To not see what is true

Forcing myself to kiss
To not shy away from touch
But I know I cannot keep
Away from reality's clutch

"So what if you like girls
I think that is okay"
But you don't hate to live
With it every single day

You don't have to be paranoid
About the glances shot your way
You don't have to live with
Trying to keep feelings at bay

And the one girl I know
That I have fallen for
Does not deserve someone like me
Someone with all these doors

Closed tight and locked
With the key thrown in the hay stack
I am a terrible human being
Who does not deserve to be loved back