by
rgpage


together with my thoughts at last
i sit alone and wonder why.
i lived so loosely in the past
that now all hopes in life must die.

in youth i carried goals to be
with all the power that i had then.
the skies were blue and cloudless seas
and every day would bring new friends.

as i grew older love would fade
for this life so richly lived.
my thoughts of friends would soon abate
as would the trust in them i’d give.

the skies turned dark and threatened rain
and so for shelter my soul would run.
caring not who’s in my way
caring only now to see the sun.

the bellies of the clouds turned black
i stood alone to face my fate.
the fear went surging down my back
i looked for help some open gate.

the doors all closed from my own deeds
i’d slighted people in the past.
no one was there in time of need
so alone i faced this foe at last.

death did not come to my surprise
although my soul was scarred by rain.
i looked up toward the clearing skies
in hopes of life to start again.

the skies did clear and life i’d find
i lived again for friends i yearned.
i relived youth but for a time
until those clouds of rain returned.

those lonely clouds why do they come
what is this life that i must live?
why can’t there only be the sun
and why  can’t trust i always give?