(pt. 1)

how?
how could i not have known?
how come you didn't tell me?
you trust me,
right?
i would have helped.
maybe that's why.

she said they were,
i said i would punch them in the face.
she said it wouldn't help,
i said i didn't care.
she said it would make it worse,
i said okay, fine. i won't.

how did you hide it so well?
how come no one knew?
it happened all the time.
how is everyone so blind?
no one knew.
or if they did,
they
didn't
care.
i care.

(pt. 2)

i care.
and i didn't know.
i would do something,
and i didn't know.
i would help,
and i didn't know.
i would figure out a way,
and i didn't know.
i would stop it,
and i didn't know.

the first time i cried
you said you didn't tell me
because you were afraid.
you were afraid
something like this would happen.
you were afraid that
i would be scared and hurt
and sad
and try to help.

maybe it's better
because you learned the lesson yourself
maybe you wouldn't have
if it hadn't gotten so bad.

i still wish you had told me.
why didn't you tell me?
how?