Life is full of pain, there are moments when you think of that one person that could change your life for ever, and then realize it will never happen. 
The realization of life is difficult, sometimes you realize how great your life is, other times you realize things that will make you breakdown and cry. Why doesn't it matter how I feel? Why do i suffer the pain of realizing that I am lost? Realizing that I am lost and will never be found. Why? I'm not sure but if i don't figure it out soon i might hurt myself.