No I'm not
I'm not okay
See through my lies
Through my strong facade, disguise

"I'm tired or bored"
"No I'm just thinking"
I am so tired
And I am thinking

Of terrible thoughts
Of nasty words
My world is spinning
And the depression is winning

My hand shakes as I
Add another cut
To my thigh, where no one
Can see how I'm just done

Done with life
With the so called friends
I'm done putting on a face
So I don't leave a residue, any trace

Of sticky, sour sadness
Anywhere near your happiness
I'm done saying I'm okay
That it's just the left overs of a long day

I'm tired of lies spilling so easily
From my tainted mouth
I'm tired of breathing
And weeping

I'm tired of being lonely
Of nights spent crying in bed
I'm tired of every one believing
Of me so easily deceiving

I'm tired of cutting
But I just can't ******* stop
I'm tired of a lot of things
And what life has next to dish up

So yes
"Oh I'm just tired"
Tired of living