It's always my fault
Every **** day
My fault he's suicidal
And my fault he stays.

But I feel nothing
Although I feel it all
Sitting alone crying
And I guess its my call.

He says its not just for him
He's doing it for me
No, I tell him, do what you have to do
I guess we'll have to wait and see.

I tried to walk away tonight
After he tried to do the same
He said we shouldn't be friends anymore
You try to forget your best friend's name.

But he couldn't just send me off
Wouldn't let me go when I tried
He can't make a solid decision
Because his heart is fried.

And that's my fault too
I couldn't just let him go before
Now look what I've done
He could be so much more.

If I'd just accepted my heart
Instead of letting my mind have a say
If I'd never put him through hell
He may not be ready to die everyday.

When I'm alone it's not so bad
And I could just help him, but see
There's this girl this time
And she means a lot to me.

So now what can I do?
I'm selfish for not helping him more
But I lose a lot no matter what
And I'm emotionally worn.

So soon he will die
And I'll be dead inside
And then I wonder
How much of it I'll be able to hide.