Body trembling from the cold Skin clammy, eyes glassy Goosebumps suddenly appearing on the surface Insides fluttering with so much excitement and anxiety Heart beating like a bass drum Thoughts moving through my head Is it worth it Do they really care Is life really just a mindless dare Should I do it now Or should I wait Should I think of others Or only myself What do I mean I this world So I mean anything at all Am I a place holder No not at all I'm not good enough To even be that I'm a mindless mistake With no hope for the future I'm existing but not living I'm here but not existing Which is true If either at all Should I stay Should I go Maybe I'll let you decide Hmm... good choice Good choice indeed Go it is then my fellow enemies On my way to an eternity Now the hard part Which to choose,which to choose? Overdose,gunshot,drowned,poisoned,suffocated,car accident,beaten,lynched,burned, So many choices But only...... One decision Hmmm......