I'm just a scared kid. I don't know what I want, and I'm not ready yet. I'm just trying to cling to the sides of life and slow it down. It's not easy going through it alone, but someone's gotta do it. The more it happens, the more it hurts. I thought I already went through this. I didn't make this choice, and it's not my fault. When he talks to me I hear you in his voice, and it's too much to handle. Shut everything out. I want to be alone, I don't need anyone's comfort. I feel like a puppet on a string, and life is dragging me along. I can't stop it. I can't change it. The past is the past, I'm not that girl. My heart has gone cold. I don't have a capacity to feel anymore. I don't need alcohol to numb my pain. I'm already numb, and it doesn't hurt. I did what you told me to do, and you made your choice.