I've never been single for more than
A month or two since I was eleven.
I think the one thing I have learned the most
From all of that.
Is how to be alone.
How to be alone
With your psychotic mental diseases.
With your eating disorders
With your self harming
With your abuse.

My best friends are
The bottle,
The knife,
The toilet.

My confidence has been denied.
I have very well tried.
And I will try to understand
Why you want to keep me hidden
Where no one can see me.
But you don't even want to know
What I have to say
What I have to feel
What I want to do.

See,
Everyone has always tried to own my body.
My parents,
My eating disorders,
And now you.

Which is why I still feel alone.