hugging your knees, rocking back and forth
with tears streaming down your face
menacing thoughts dance in your mind
even a silent creak sounds as loud as a heavy metal song
blaming and cursing yourself
for someone else's faults
putting your soul on the line
numb, senseless
about to take the fall from a skyscraper
second thoughts might make you reconsider
if only your faith could search for a reason
to live;
even one is more than enough
yet that one reason decided to play hide and seek
not knowing you no longer have the strength
to hunt for it
instead of looking back
you take a step forward to the border
eyes closed, arms spread out like wings
inhaling deep breaths
the moment before you take the jump
and there you go
you fly into the air
letting the the gravity consume you
finally released from your suicidal thoughts