it isn't easy
anymore
it was never fair
i always could
hold a sword and
shield myself from
feelings you bring
with you everywhere
but long since
i can remember
my sword was
split and my shield
was lost in the feelings
you passed on to me

i want to be
the perfect
you want to wake up
to in the morning

i want to be
the roses
and stars and
nose kisses that
keep you trudging
through rain puddles
of sorrow you collected

i want to be
yours
and
i wish you
wanted to be
mine