I want to take a moment.
Just one.
To sit in silence for those we've lost.
For those we've lost and now let down.

Today, is not a holiday.
But a reminder.
My year is almost up,
And what have I done to make you proud?
Nothing.

Sure.
I've became the shiny new toy for many.
"Magical"
"Beautiful"
"Adventitious"
"Intreaguing"

Let me think about this.
If I'm all of these things,
Why have I done nothing magical?
Why have I not created beauty?
Why have I not been on an adventure?
Why have I not kept interest?
Why have I not faced my fears?
Why am I not bold?
Daring?

So let us take a moment of silence.
To apologize.
Frankly because,
I have not been living my life.
If my world is growing larger,
Why do I imagine it getting so much smaller?

So this is for you Paw.
This ones for you.
This next year,
In honor of you.

A moment of life, for you.