I really loved him. Not in a teenage way, in a real way.
He was in so many big parts of my life: Prom. Graduation. College. Everything.
It's so hard to let a person go that's been through everything with you.
That night at Braums, I was so sure of everything. I felt that magnetic pull towards you. That's him, that's the one I'm gonna marry that boy
It's still a shock I guess, and it's hard to put on a smile. I guess when someone has been in your life for that long, it gets even harder for you to let them go.
I feel in my heart that it isn't over, but in reality I can't explain.
You were such a big part of my life, and still are and will be, there's no denying or pretending that. You changed everything.
And it's crazy to even say or think this, I know, but if you ever came back, I'd say yes in a moment's flash.
I stare at that ring you gave me, I realize now more than I ever did how beautiful it is. It sits on my nightstand, twinkling. It is hard for me to hold it, or even look at it. But I still do. I put it on my ring finger, but then I take it off again. I don't know if it's too painful, or I'm just too hopeful.