Am I sick? I think I need some help or a swift kick in the *** perhaps Maybe I need meds Maybe I need to be committed Perhaps i'm just depleted I'm damaged I'm broken I've been used, abused, and so misunderstood I'm stupid Such a dumb girl With such a broken soul No tears to cry or place to call my own I am alone or at least that's how I feel No one gets it or cares to even try So why do I? I am dead My insides are black and rotten My heart is like stone My spirit does not shine There is no light in my eyes No spark in my soul Just a dark lonely hole I am empty, hollow so tired am I I'm weary and cannot find rest I am heavy like the heart in my chest I am a nothing, a nobody going no where in this place called life A failure A good for nothing mom I have no patience I have no time No purpose or cause Nothing I believe in Nothing I strive for more than to escape I want out of this hell I've made for me Cold Bitter and made of stone I have nothing more to give My bones feel so brittle as if one big squeeze would cause them to disintegrate into ashes Every angry, cruel word spoken cuts me a little deeper Promises made and words not kept have made me so numb to anything anyone could ever say No dreams for me anymore Nothing to hope for My blood sometimes boils with anger I get hot all over So much pent up aggression inside me If I were to ball up my fist and punch something it would explode Glum is a good word to describe how I feel Tattered and torn Why was I ever born? What is my lot in this life? What purpose am I to serve Wasted days Wasted nights ******* feelings Stupid *** pride I have nothing I am nothing If I could find a dark hole I could just crawl into I would stay there forever and die there too Why are people so bad to each other? Why do we hurt each other so? I'm tired of feeling confused Unable to make decisions Sick of the consequences Tired of being walked on Sick and tired of being lied too So exhausted from being confused I don't know what everyone wants or what I want too Trying to please everyone is getting so old Always put myself last Yet you call me selfish what ******* how asinine What am I suppose to do? How am I suppose to feel? What does everyone want from me? I'm stretched so thin I'm about to unravel I'm always riding the fence Get drunk and cut is about to be my only option Run away and never look back Leave everything I've ever known I'm so unsure all the time It's almost as if I'm paranoid Always watching my back scared all the time When will this all go away? I don't know how much more I can take I'm about to burst into a million pieces My chest is tight My lungs about to explode It's like I'm always trying to escape myself It's like I'm drowning I want out of my mind I don't want to think The more I do the faster I sink I want to scream and let it all out I want to have faith and never doubt Will someone please save me, I'm begging you to! Don't let me slip back into this dark abyss I don't want to feel like this anymore Please won't somebody rescue me?! Please save me from myself! Don't let me die like this