I don't know... I know the things I want in life I want a family I want to open a bakery I want to be a grandparent die old, retired, and happy
But I don't know I don't know if I'll get married and if I do get married I don't know if I'll get divorced or have children or be able to open my bakery
For all I know I could die young I may not fall in love again Or maybe I will fall in love but be barren and not be able to have kids
There is beauty in the unknown there is also a ton of anxiety but beautiful in that your life could be anything no matter what plans you have no matter how determined you are no matter what means you come from life is spontaneous and unpredictable like New England weather or a cat - no one knows what cats are up to... they are
Unpredictable and subject to change No matter what we want we need to be pliable and ready for change when it hits because it will happen to us we will be given something unexpected and we will have to mold and adapt
I'm learning this the older I get I don't know how my life will end up I could die today or in 50 years, there's no way of knowing so I don't know I guess I just have to keep hoping my plans come to fruition but I don't know if they will and it worries me just because the unknown is beautiful don't make it any less scary and I'm scared simply because I don't know.