For a while I didn't like anything
and you knew
But you also knew I always liked you

When my fingers ached under the pressure and I pressed red lines into my skin you did not call for help

you went to the store every day for a month when I would only eat kiwi
and you held my hair out of the toilet when I had too much to drink

I can still remember crying
saying you deserved more
I never learned how to give

I only know how to take

and you put my face between your hands and said god bless my soul for being mighty and deep and you said you couldn't wait to spend a lifetime drowning in it