its not that i want views
i just want to be validated
to feel like somebody gets me.
like i'm not a ******. 

its not that I want friends
i just don't want to be alone.
to feel like i can share my thoughts freely
like i don't have to cower in a corner all day

its not that i want to be happy 
i just want to feel normal.
to feel like my conditions don't define me.
to break free from the grasps of 
anxiety, depression, addiction.

its not that i want to die
i just don't want to be here anymore. 
to not feel anything 
to be whole.