Why do I have to force people to love me?
Tell them to care about me
Why don't they just do it themself
Am I really that hard to love?

That in all these years
I never once felt love
The way I loved—
Deeply, passionately and endlessly

But it was just who I am
Filled with love
Without ever being loved

Sometimes I feel cursed
The curse of always being loving
But never being loved
Like i read in books
Like in the movies i watch
That kind of love never found me
Even not in my own family

Youngest but never loved
Told to be more
Like their older child
But never themselves
I was never anyones favourite
They never came to me
When their life got hard
Or when it was fun