I changed my sheets today - the ones that smelled like your cologne... Actually, "tore them from my bed with the ferocity of Midas" may be more appropriate. Because I couldn't stand to spend one more night pretending as if you were here - or as if you were ever coming back.
I washed that shirt you wore You know, my favorite one. The same one I've slept in every night since you left just praying to find some morsel of solace to delay the impending insanity of sleep deprivation. But just because I could smell you didn't mean you were there...didn't mean you were real and I almost started to wonder if you'd been here at all.
I didn't eat today or the day before that, if I'm being honest. Food has no taste, no pleasure without you at the table, fork and knife in hand ready to devour it - and me.
I went for a walk today down the street to our favorite spot and I didn't spend my time wishing you had your arm around me or wishing you were holding my hand or wishing that your warmth was pressed against me to help tame the goosebumps. Or at least I tried not to. But who am I kidding?
I met someone new today. He smiled at me and said something forgettable.. then asked me to go to dinner with him next week and there's nothing I'd like more than to say yes but still...
After all this time I know it's your face I would see staring back at me across that table and your body I would wish for lying next to me in bed.