I feel it in my bones
When im all alone
It gives my grief a home
Unexpected and unknown

The sadness keeps you with me
Heart breaking to the third degree
I thought our end would mean we're free
But your memory grows like a tree

All through my mind
I was evil, when you were kind
Puts my feelings in quite the bind
Guilt is all I seem to find

When you lose someone you used to defend,
New regrets surface you can't comprehend.
Now put on a smile and try to pretend,
But don’t forget—you created the end.

Five years ago
My true colors showed
My reply to you was no
I told you you needed to go
You said we can still be friends right
I said its not fair to fill your thoughts at night
Your future deserves clear eye sight
It was just like you to let me win that fight

You asked for a hug goodbye
Under a star filled dark night sky
When I said I never loved you , I lied
I never expected so soon you'd die

As I write this i am married
As for you, you'll soon be buried
Your casket wont be the only thing carried
As my tortured thoughts are no longer parried

So long to a former beau
You've opened wounds That have no way to sew
I always thought my feelings for you were faux
I didnt realize youd bring me to an all time low

Your karma will do its work
As your memory it will lurke
Because when you dropped dead at work
We both know it was me that was the merk

C.K. Orzen