I need to repaint my room
turn the walls to ash
I am no longer that girl
who loved yellow
and smiled at flowers

I want a dark room
to reflect to I am
to uninvite every feeling of happiness
that ever walked through that door

I want to escape
into my black hole
and destroy myself
in my own home

Let me tear the flowers off
and the bright pink boarder
I know it was a lot of work
but I will never be her

I will never be the girl
who smiled all the time
that girl was ***** and murdered
a long time ago

Now I ask again
Can I repaint my room
Turn the walls to ash
and make it my own home