Back to square one Are we really done Is it time or distance Or your willful resistance There's been too many separations and segregations Epiphanies and revelations Sometimes I feel like I'm still 15 Just a kid who is lost in the abyss of too many thoughts and projected emotions Over analyzing the happy times Searching for signs they were only lies Does that make me a delusional pessimist Or am I finally awake to reality Maybe I'm out of balance The Bird told me I was once The Bird told me I was tilted and tipping with seams over stuffed and ripping The Bird flew away and I have no idea what they would say if they saw me today And Two hasn't looked me in the eye since I changed my name I don't know why Maybe I left a bottle uncorked and everything that couldn't be put back left a stain I'll never know if Two never shows I keep sending invitations that return to sender I want to keep trying but I've never been a mender And Purple told me they go by Pink now So I left because I realized all along they've really been Blue Purple was never a color I knew That's something I can no longer wish into truth And all the Flowers bloom somewhere else So I'm left alone in a dead garden Mostly by myself The first square I have Freckles now When I look at the Sun Some of them are little Usually they're fun I have Freckles now New ones than before And when I try to smile I have Freckles to twinkle with my eyes And if I forget to think And mange a wink I feel invincible I am showered in Freckles I wish I wish I wish I wish I wish on a Star To take pity on me A sea of Freckles Stars and Sand And sometimes I can't tell which I'm buried in