I'm nocturnal But I'm glowing inside. One may not see Looking from the outside. Upside and down Side to side Confusion all around. Angry in retrospect No longer more I found the confidence To break away from this internal state of war. And to explore, How to love The joys of a stable core. Solitude a welcoming friend I failed to comprehend, I'm sorry dear one It was you I needed to work on all along. Neglecting you were here for the long run, allowing external influences To consume, engulf, dictate, What I was when it was you But you are me and I am you. I shall not forget the mark you leave Because without you I'll give in To all my insecurities. Destroying us, Like a crumbling statue Leaking water and all that spews. No longer will I be whole. Who is you? For you are not a person. Non-exsistent. You're my self-worth, my credence My internal self. And till today you belonged detached, Mismatched, unattached. And I shall obliterate, that cognitive state. For this weak flame shall smother, And burn bright for those who wish to see. You are my definitions My interests, hobbies, passions Replies and reactions. You are the tastes buds I so dearly love. The endless daydreams I conjure My demure, For you are me when I am secure.