The spotlight that I stood in
It helped me remember
That people do cherish me
People love me
People appreciate me
People adore me

People may think it's child exploitation
People may think it's child abuse
Just for me
To be the main figure in the shining bright light
Allowing people to watch me sway around the stage
Allowing people to hear my voice
Allowing people to see my creativity
But all it seems to be
Is for me
To get a more attention
To not be ignored
For people to come together to support me
I felt like I was getting lifted
It was dangerous for how high up I was
I felt amazing
My self-esteem was boosting
I felt better about myself
Because all I do
Is doubt myself
To the point where I might commit suicide

I've been isolated
By myself because
I knew that I was horrible
I know I still am
Look how I write
It's terrible
I'm aware
Yet, that small amount of approval is everything
That made me love everything
It brought the fire to my dull flame
Relieving me of my own darkness

I'm glad I had my fifteen seconds of fame
It made me feel better
But now I'm back at square one
I can feel the water spraying my fire down
And I feel kicked off my stage
I feel replaced
I feel like I'm no good
I'm happy I finally got recognized by more than 30 people though 🫶