One-sided is an understatement.
I would have been stubbornly, blissfully, intoxicatedly yours, until my chance bore fruit.
But here I am... losing myself to a dream I've already woken from.
Losing the motivation to be anything more than a shell of the happiness you brought into my deluded mind.
Losing my reason to keep trying, because ****...
One-sided was such an understatement.
Here I am, a blank page with edges slowly crinkling under the pressure of the beautiful masterpiece we could have painted.
I was too stubborn, too invested, too hopeful that my mistakes wouldn't crack the eggshells I'd been walking on with you for so long. But *******, I ruined it. I know my flaws, my weaknesses, and they run on repeat in my mind, reminding me of all the times I felt myself hurt that precious, unreachable treasure.
And now, the distance between us would make even the furthest stars seem but a step away.
One-sided is an understatement... And now I look back at the mirror that is 'us,' me on one side and you on the other, and I can't help but feel I'll never be as close as I was in the past to breaking through the barrier of reality...
The barrier of my dreams.
I missed my chance... I missed my shot, and now here I am... missing the you I could proudly brag to everyone was mine... even if it was but the smallest piece of you I dared to dream of owning.
My motivation, my favorite voice, my favorite person... the one I never owned... but the one my heart longed for... for so long.