here it is warm
but the company
colder than
white
trying
subtly
to differentiate
from one
or the other

a blip
on intuition
wasted
and desperate

she reaches
deep
into her womb
grabbing
squeezing
spongy tissue
aborting all emotion

expelling all
that was lost
the first time
she called
your name

you never heard
her voice
blank
silent
ignorance
did you ever love
her silent words


she allowed
you to push
inside
deep
pleasure
mistaken for love

gliding
thrusting
grunting
moaning

***

contracting
throbb­ing
spurting
dripping
screaming

crying

bleeding
incision
decision
circumcision

birthing