At what cost was this lie? This lie of love This lie of care Was it all a show? Was there truly never love there? I know it takes time and time ticks by slow But for what did you cause us both pain? Were you really just shy Or was that too a lie? My heart is shattered Our love has scattered My love was true All my love Reserved for you At what cost was this lie? Did you know it would go this way? Did you know you were leading me astray? Was I truly the first? Would that make me your worst? This lie of love This lie of care I lay in bed wondering "o where?" "Where shall my heart rest?" My heart is dying in this disheartened chest This chest you once used for rest This mind which was once one to follow yours Now scattered Shattered Along this hard cold floor The floor of the home i dreamt for us together The home in which we could live our forever This dark purple door Your favorite color My favorite? The sea of blue and brown in your eyes For what cost were your lies? My heart My pain Your heart Your name Your name I could have had Your hand in my hand Side by side My head on your shoulder The place i would never have cried Sitting in that blue and green chair My fingers running through your hair I thought you loved me Now I can finally see It was a coax Iām sorry I'm sorry i believed I'm sorry i was so naive Im sorry my prince I was once your beauty Now i'm the beast It was all your hoax For what cost were your lies? Tears still flood these broken eyes
I wrote this about a relationship I was in and the time following was (and still is) the darkest time of my life.