My head and my heart
Refuse to admit
That it was that bad

Even when I remember
I refuse it
With my whole being

Even when I remember
The way I gripped onto you
With every fiber of my being
As I begged you to take it all away

Even when I remember
The way I screamed
With every ounce of air in my lungs
When you became HIM right infront of me

Even when I remember
The way I stared at your face
With no faltering and no break
Just to remind myself that its you

Even when I remember
The way you held me down
With every muscle in your body
As I screamed and hit because he's in my head

My head and my heart
Refuse to admit
That it was that bad
Because then maybe I can forget
Outside of the rare moments
That I remember