so what if i tried
i still failed
so what if you loved me
you still bailed
i shouldn't bother with questions
but what hell
if you didnt mean what you said
how was i supposed to tell

murky waters
waded slowly
till my chin tickled the current

fears turned curious
then learning to knowing
hesitation undressed to inherence

like i belonged
yet teeth were showing
but i didn't want to question a friend

so naive
buying everything you sold me
much to my own chagrin

so what if i misjudged
you still deserted
maybe i'm ******* stupid
but did i deserve it
i shouldn't try to understand
but i'm just that type of person
swallowed by the tragedy of life
and disappointed with it's lack of purpose