between the painful ****** of nostalgia from the past and the hugs and dreams of fantasies from the future there’s no room for you to live here maybe if I evict my equivocal feelings and start thinking less and saying more at least you would have something you would want to respond too without just replying to me out of pity maybe then you would move back into my present silly of me to think i could even pause time for a second but I swear when i’m with you it’s like the world moves slower but now I sit on top of the ordinary and the world still spins without you here the sun sets a little earlier the birds still flock in sync, how they did yesterday everything is still the same, but i look at the so normal world with wistful eyes. and i’ve drowned myself in sentimentality not because I don’t know how to swim, but I just choose not too. and as I navigate through this world without my muse with potential as an artist, with dreams of a time traveler I pray to stars and ask for a split second just to be with you again.
there’s lots of screaming going on in my head and your voice is the only thing that can make whatever it is shut the **** up.