Amidst my pain, I'm a machine A vessel for everyone's endless whine A call the mother makes, her voice so clear Monique's illness, her own despair She pours it all our without a care
My agony cast aside like usual As I'd my suffering is but a ride I'm a dispenser of sympathy A shoulder to cry on endlessly But where can I find my own release In this one-sided exchange, I find no peace
Her words flow freely like a rivers tide But mine are pushed aside I'm but a vessel, a tool to be used My own needs and feelings utterly refused
Oh mother, why are you so selfish to not hear my scream The pain in my voice, that I carry deep inside
I'm not a machine, I'm flesh and bone With feelings that you seem to disown So here I am, a HUMAN VENDING MACHINE Dispensing empathy
I've started writing as it is the only way I feel. The pressure that I am under because of the "happy" daughter and used a vending machine. Trying to find my voice to stand up to those who have continued to hurt me with silence and abandonment that these two people have done.