Love...

the source of my happiness,
the source of my pain

A drug that causes the highest of highs
While also causing the hardest crashes

I love it
I hate it
I cant decide how I feel about it

She confuses me
Or am I the one looking for complications

"You just afraid of commitment"
Well perhaps...

I'm afraid of being committed to the wrong one
I'm afraid of hurting again...
Placing my trust in someone
Just so they can shatter it in a moment

Love for those that are insecure is such an excruciating experience
I envy those that are secure
To be able to love without the fear of betrayal
To be able to set boundaries without the fear of being left alone

Yet I can't live without love
I prefer to be alone
Yet don't want to be alone

the source of my happiness,
the source of my pain

Love...