from the start i was drawn in
i felt seen and heard
to learn again, you
were already being loved
the i wanted to for you

it's odd how easily it is for me to believe
that because of the rarity of my expectations being met,
though they are high
tend to fall already into place with another
it's frustrating to linger between the ideas,
continue pursuing and answer the questions
or lean into fully pursuing myself completely

through thinking it through i would still be grateful
to share a friendship
although i know it'll hurt to be less than
i'd want with you