is it cruel to still have love in my heart
at the same time as i manifest your downfall
every other night you invade my dreams
and i wake up with ache of having lost it all
i want what might have never been
i wish things were different
i just wanted a friend
and you wanted me to be convenient

guess we both get to leave unsatisfied
though your complaints are far from fair
if i was so annoying why'd you stay
if i was too emotional why'd you let me care
claim all you want but i rest easy knowing
i ran myself empty to be who you needed
and that wasn't smart
i hate to rethink it

but my problems with you
are beyond simple disappointment
you built up the most fragile part of me
and then destroyed it
you lied and you held back
you did what was easiest for you
and its ugly but i hope one day
someone makes you feel this way too

i'll kick my rocks
until i get home
wherever that may be

and maybe down the road
after a lot of time
i'll be able to forgive me