i want the words to fall out
effortlessly
beautifully
but in this life things rarely ever happen how you think they oughta

i'm so different now
oscillating
obfuscating
but somehow feeling better after the only loss i never considered or even thought of

my future was painted so you
unfortunately
extortionately
at first i was afraid by the nothingness that developed when you deserted

but i called it too soon
in a whirlwind
did the world end
no but i finally opened my curtains

the life that i want
will cost the life that i have
i deserve so much better
than someone who won't love me back