I am such a shell A fractured piece as well Of who I used to be Used to feel and used to see I am such a mess A melted version, less Than the person I once was What I thought I’d become I can’t even love Anything I used to love Without leaning on a crutch Something new to pick me up Even my most beloved things Have since grown up and grown wings And flown beyond my grasp Leaving me to finish last
It feels like I can’t enjoy anything anymore without some kind of chemical pick me up. Nothing is fun, nothing is good, not without help: