I have changed and I am changing. Like this town, Old facades fall And the promise of a better way Rises from the rubble of memories Warm and familiar.
The old and the new find space here. The stone past and the fluid present, The river and the bridge, The arches of then bend over The current of now, Cut out and carved, Twisting and flowing.
Lines cast still, Hooks reel in empty And they do it all again, As I love and lose And do it all again, Rebuilding my abutments For a third time since arriving here.
This time the work is slow. One hand shovels, Filling in the holes love left behind When it departed. Ripping my supports from their foundation Deep in the earth, Beneath the running water.
The other scrubs away the future From the slate of my expectations. As what was etched there Has turned to mere delusion, I must start again at engraving A more plausible picture. But the lines were chiseled deep By my determined hands So the work of erasing draws on and on.
To create and destroy at the same time, Like the water erodes the bank While carrying the assurance of life Through the verdant landscape To the abundant sea.
I wish I could call this growth. While I hope this laboring is not in vain There is no knowing if any of it will leave me With the foundation of self I seek. This backbreaking toil Is merely to break even, To give me a dry place to stand.
The sun now departs. Orange dipping behind green The light turns blue, And I need a jacket. Shivering, I stand To find warmth.