I call and I wait
and yet you don't respond
I wait and I wait
hoping it's a dream that I'll awaken from

A few days
then months
and years with the seasons
going by and by

I wait and I wait
waiting still -- for the reason why
Illusions and mirages
gone---now tears well up in my eyes

I will no longer pretend im happy
I am not ok
but I must move on sadly
how is that ok

I only wait like this cause I still want you
yet, your the reason why
these tears sting and almost completely give away to my disguise
if only you'd look into my eyes
i dont know what i wish for you to see
but hopefully you'd see my love and how lethal it can be
--to  me