I’m getting used to it,
but I am still not okay with it.
I still dream about him
and mostly they aren’t good.
Nightmares of him with
other girls, right in front of me
I’ve kinda decided this
year will be the year of no men.
I’ve never done that but also
I still don’t want to be with anyone
else. I never will.
No other man will ever
care about me as much as he did,
even if he is the thing that hurts me most.
No other man will ever
have that connection that we did,
like our souls are tied together
even if we can’t be together.
I’m still his girl.
Always will be.