i remember how your words
shaped your lips when you spoke
but no longer the sound of your voice

i remember how you smiled
with all of your teeth like a child
but no longer the sound of your laugh

but even if i did, i'm sure
your voice has changed by now
and your laugh is different, isn't it

i'm forgetting who you were then
i'll never know who you are now

i didn't realize you could become
even more lost to me than you were
when i lost you

27.11.23