and in that moment, i am 17 again swallowing liquid flames just a little girl getting all the blame
in that moment, i am re-reading the messages running my fingers over their icy, stone tower, searching for a crack in which i could drown in guilt, which would bewray me as a liar and a stake to be burned.
but, my fort stands still, for it is built on the truth which does not yield nor does it easily shatter.
it is wonky, it is ugly, but the truth has never been pretty. i break my nails on the strong wall, cursing my own only merit.
for i am just a little girl, perhaps, about to be alone again.
I just needed someone to stay.
this is 2 years old. but the habit is as old as time, and one that is reborn every day.