I can't force myself to stop thinking about you,
My mind's a mess, my thoughts are askew.
I have crazy notions running through my head,
I'm angry at myself for the tears that I've shed.
Cause it doesn't matter it's all in vain,
I'm causing my self all this pain.
You don't care that I felt betrayed,
I try to hide my hurt, continue my charade.
I wish I could've push you away as easily as you pushed me,
Maybe then things wouldn't have ended badly.
I wonder how it would be to stop all feeling,
Would it be a curse, or more like a blessing.
A moment of peace, a quiet emptiness,
my mind as blank as a bare canvas.