This is an ever-refreshing circle of
long for-love-attach-suffer for
and when I eat food
they are the blandest meals
for I must avoid any taste of salt
because salt tastes like you...
and when I recall
how sweet
you are
I hurt
and I should not hurt.
if I don't hurt, i will not be deserted, and then i will not hurt.
circle logic.
at least it has a shape.
Otherwise, what form does a life take?
What sense does this world make?
And so, i stay, inside the circuit,
because I have not learned to lead myself away
and if I were to learn that I love myself,
and that I cause this hurt to myself,
I don't know how I could ever forgive me.