i did nothing today i sat in my thoughts like i didn't have a choice but i did, did i not
and in the past i'm not consoled in the present i've lost control i love the ones i never told i leave behind the ones i'm supposed to know in the heat of the moment awareness goes out of the metaphorical window i just feel the heat and the rumble in my bones a burning sensation as the words scrape my throat and after i've lost my voice and the moment implodes we all go home and i never gloat because winning is losing when you're all alone
so i nurse the wounds and try to move but even if i apologize to you our problems arent as simple as talking things through i walked away but you threw the first punch both are true
but im almost willing to take all of the blame if i dont have waste another day feeling like you might die and it ended this way
and i know thats morbid as **** to worry about but it's happened before and i'm scared to find out you're gone and i was too proud to figure **** out or let my guard down in the fight to be right i feel like i might let you down
it's conflicting knowing how much you've hurt me and wanting you to see that pain wanting you to take it away in the way only you can by understanding why it hurt in the first place but also wanting to live this life together before we've gotten that far
i can't let you think its okay but i can't let you walk away i'm afraid i did nothing today