My heart is small. I thought I could tolerate my feelings toward anyone if I wanted to. But No, I can't. I am not that two-faced person. If I want to be myself, first I should learn not to lie to myself. I don't want to lie to my heart saying that I don't love you. I love you. I still don't know what is love or what people should do for love or how to do it fairly without hurting myself. If I love someone I truly love that person. I tell it, I express my feelings and I don't want to lose him either. But If I cannot do that, if I cannot have that warmth in his hugs, if I have to think twice before jumping into his arms... I'm just asking WHY...?