there could be a worm in my head gnawing away, like mice do through cords, and then one day you realize oh! the toaster doesn't work anymore!; my mercy doesn't work anymore! and my patience went dry like acrylic paint does when you brush it on the canvas, and want so badly to blend it but it can't blend because it's dried already, so you should probably try oil paint or something - I'm losing my mind picking all the weeds out, standing tall with peaceful pride and then realizing, they were beautiful flowers; I uprooted them and then chucked them in a naughty pile
I'm awful! loud in my head stop being awful! I'm hurting people again and again and again
find a better gardener, please never ever ever ask me to tend to your soil or your fruit or your flowers or anything that has to do with nurturing your growth or heart health or emotional stability - I pull roots like a robot; I don't even look at what I'm pulling until after it's been pulled out.