I do not have the luxury Of caring for myself. When I feel tears coming I bite my tongue And look at something bright To hold them back When I feel the need to slash my wrists I don't say anything I just allow it to happen And hope that this won't be the day That I finally give into temptation I can't take time off work For a mental health day I need the money And rent isn't cheap When I feel unloved I don't tell anyone I just suffer And wish And hope And scream Inside Wishing I could open my mouth Utter the words So that someone Anyone will know That I'm not okay That I'm asking for help
I've read that when you're depressed, you should treat yourself like you're sick- take a few days off work, rest, take long baths, drink tea... but what do you do when you feel like this constantly? I can't take every day off from life. I'm in meds, and I don't know why I still feel this way. Nothing lasts longer than a moment. I just want to go back to the way it was before.