it’s been so long since i’ve written about you.
maybe i am too preoccupied on what’s happening daily

but yes, let’s take it as a positive note

however, there are still days where i crave your presence
how we talked nonchalantly

i miss you, really.

it still hurts that i've lost you
but not only did  i lost you,
but i also lost the guts and courage to talk to you.

you assured me nothing will change.
but the change i’ve seen and felt is drastic.

i can’t talk to you in a free and careless manner anymore.
i can’t consider you my safe space now.

don’t get me wrong, i still feel safe with you.
but not like i used to.