for the first time i am not staying alive for the good of every one else
(for the first time i'm learning how to love myself)
i'll probably delete this later. i'm just really content right now. i've never felt this independent or okay, and even on days where everything goes to hell, i'm starting to remind myself to stay alive because *i* deserve that, not just because nobody i know deserves to deal the the mess i'd leave behind. it's honestly the best feeling in the word right now?